bye felicia

so much anger thats how i know it aint right. she skyrockets when your around. thats why ill never see you again. I’m not guilty though. not about this, i tried so hard, and you have so many already you don’t need me. i could never tell you put you haven’t changed at all. i think you might’ve gotten taller, more conceited? I’m glad you care about yourself. but just yourself? cmon now. i wonder what that feels like, no remorse. but whatever enjoy your life sista, this is da goodbye

god I’m so fucked up. fighting back tears every time i look at my dad. i can’t look him in the eye. I’m dying. i want to die, i wanna go home but i can’t. his happiness is more important then mine. his happiness matters. he deserves it, he gives so much and i just take take take. same with my mother. at least she has my sister. at least she’s happy. i think. i wish i was never born. I’m the reason they stress so much. i can’t do it all. i can’t make them all happy. god why can’t i make them all happy. instead of trying I’m sitting here victimizing myself. posting pointless shit no one will ever read. i wish no one cared about me. that i could just slip away disappear. the ones who were there i pushes away. i put delusions in peoples head. gave them terrible ideas. broke them, just like i broke myself. i want to disappear why can’t i disappear. why am i here. i wanna go home.

Everytime i feel unattractive I just remind myself I made it past my scene phase.

you’re right its not her but its not you either.